Most girls have that fantasy of the white knight on his gantlet steed coming to save them. If not they have planned out they’re perfect wedding at a very young age. I for one have never dreamt of the knight or the wedding. In truth I’ve truly never want to be married. It had never been one of my dreams.(almost a nightmare, Eek the cat!!) I wanted to be the knight. I wanted rescue myself. Now I’m not saying anything is wrong with the wedding or the knight no, no, no, of course not if this floats your boat, then more power to you. But come on now is that ever really going to happen? How many people do you know personally that have had a fairy tale romance? I have not known any…well for the exception of my youngest sibling. He and his wife weren’t fairy tale but it’s a nice story and they ended up married. And I’m sure it’s not prefect but it work for them. Though everyone else I have known has had horrible relationships all my friends, sisters, aunt, uncles, cousins… oh dear lord the cousins. Everyone is damaged and broken waiting for the next person to save them, making the same mistakes over and over again.
Surely I’m no better than anyone else. The one relationship I was in, he was abusive verbally. Of course cause I would have cut the fool if he would have touched me in that way shape or form. But I know I have my patterns and men that I go for…are not so emotionally available but you know that neither am I. That is mostly why I pick them...O_o the wrongness of that statement!
But you know that at some point in your life. You meet someone that you think I forgive the term but the bees’ knees (hahahah now I just sound ancient). That they’re your one! The more you get to know the person. The more you feel like you just connect in a way that you never thought you could with anyone else. You float on air and feel like the world around you doesn’t matter, and wanna you know what? At that moment it doesn’t. Those feelings are pure and genuine (or so it may seem). So all you wanna do is be around them. So then we build it up (the retarded relationship) like they’re our one, (and you know you got friends and loved ones telling WTF!?What do you see in that douche?) we give our all into it…
Except they don’t feel the same at all, what we think is a good connection or dare I say it the L-word (no, not lesbians) is nothing but infatuation. Though we don’t know which one it is? Or maybe we do but we blind ourselves from the truth. We want that person the one sooo bad (you know their bad!). We only see the good or the fun times we spent we them, and the bad flows away with the tide (is high but I’m holding on) cause you want them to be your number one. So how can you tell? Well I don’t know. So like I totos wish you could like magical ask the person you're on crack for...like OMG!! Do you like like me? Ha ha aha If only we all could all be so bold...
Only If...
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