I have this problem…well to most it wouldn’t be, but for me it is. I’m a flirt. Except I’m not really, like I’ve said before I’m nice, uber nice (with people I don’t know so well) to the point sometime that it looks like flirting. I never could define flirting. See I just don’t think I do it well when I actually try. It’s confusing cause I don’t feel like I’m flirting?! Nevertheless I’m constantly being told that I do it and that I give guys, boys, men and some women the wrong idea (though the last one not so much). Mostly that I want them and I’m gonna go home with them (pssstt, to have sex ;-)) and maybe it would happen if they met the right height requirements but sadly most don’t.
Besides that is clearly not the message I wanna convey. When I go out I’m not really looking for anyone to hook up with. I just want to have fun. The shenanigans we (my lovely friends and I) devise usually compels attention. So mostly I get the other guy, but hey I’m the other girl too so it’s cool, as a result (unless he’s being a drunktard). We sit and have what I think is a nice conversation. While he perceives it as that I am flirting with him. *le sigh* Still I can’t help it, it comes out in my smile (that I do it too much it happens when I’m nervous). That so while you’re talking, I usual have my complete focus on (paying attention!) you, though really I have the attention span of gnat and shinny things distract me! Well unless you don’t count when I’m being antisocial. O.o
So on that note not only am I a flirt but I’m easy too?! The easiest of the easy…but I’m not even close to that at all. I wanna to be offend cause I’m a harded nut to crack and I never used to be the last call girl. But come on, it is what it is, and just cause someone throws attention my way they think they're gonna take me home have their way with me? Hmm....I think not! My brother once told me that I gotta stop looking like I’m interested in what these idiots say. Cause apparently that if you do that while nodding and smiling. They think you wanna have sex with them, plus add the fact that they might be holding their liquor very well with the shout for last call. Thinking that they're gonna get lucky. Again umm no. It’s a bit disconcerting.
Although on the flip side when getting attention from a very sober, very good looking guy. I have the tendency to run away. Why just last night I went to Tar’je (Target for those of you that don’t speak getto) with one of my girlfriends. Ugh! She a cute short little thing with big boobs… Soo you can image the inadequacy I feel when I’m with her. I don’t get looked at by anyone. Anyways the cashier was very handsome and tall. So when it was my turn to pay. He talks TO ME?! Actually he was flirts with me and I did’t know what to do so I smile and try to say something cute. But really it wasn't and I just walk way a bit mortified. I just don’t know how to handle either situation. So with that I say Grr Arrggg! Flirting is just not my forte…
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