Just horribly mean!

I know what you're thinking but I must confess that I am a mean girl. If you ever met me on the street I don't I’d give off that impression? And yes, I know that my other posting have been a tad bit bleak, broad line depressing and downright sadness at times (hmmm I think I just see it way). Anyways as everyone else has a kaleidoscope of emotions (it’s just emotions taking me over!) so do I, even though I’m more prone to dreary. But mean would be creeping up right next to it. You never really want to admit things like that to the general population. Most of the time they won’t believe you until an act of meanness is witnessed. Apparently my younger sibling witnessed such an account and was appalled. He couldn’t believe I would ever cut anyone down like that, to him I’m not that girl…

So mean…I am have been for years. I really I wanna say it’s all my mother’s fault for her intolerable ways and back handed comments. They just flows natural from her. The woman is a terror (I love my mother I really do). It’s just somehow she has this way of twisting some sweet and innocent comment or a look in to something just mean.  It's almost like the meanness rubs off on you. Then when you least except it seeps out. Then bam you've just said something especially horrible. Hereditary is a bitch.

Oh really for the most part, I'm ever amicable. Particularly when I’m a stranger, it’s that whole etiquette thing, if I don’t know you; my best behavior is what you’ll receive. Original my mouth has always gotten me in trouble, when I was little (meow, meow). I had the tendency to say the first thing that comes to mind. Clearly as you can guess it was never anything really nice. I recognize now that I had no filter but most children don’t and that is why we learn. Oh you know that whole stupid etiquette thing.  So having been on a leash as most children should be (learn young, learn quickly) I think. Therefore when was left free reign of my mouth it was never a good thing, It seemed like I opened my mouth to either insulted or hurt somebody’s feelings. I’m starting to look at myself with not entirely objective eyes (yeah like anyone you know can really look at themselves objectively). So for that reason I feel the first time I made an unkind remake I knew it was wrong but I didn’t care. The more I did it the more natural it seemed it was so mean…

-Adriana