I'm talented. Really I am, you wouldn't think so cause all of my issues (Oh dear lord! Do I have some). Even thought, I have talent up the wahooz, I tell you what!? I have it coming out of all kinds of orificessses! (I don't care what you think I'm sticking to that statement -,-) I see the pretty in the not so pretty (hey I try and that's all that counts.) Well I am creative, imaginative...and as good as that is, I’m pretty (oh so pretty) spacey. Scattered brained really, I have issues with finishing things (Ooo look, an issue). I have to be careful because of this, I distract easily...shinny things are my kryptonite (umm there are others but you don't need to know that.) The worst part about this is that I've gotten really good a pretending that you have my attention (thank you mother). When in reality I've been in a far off galaxy light years away er something to that effect, but creative minds have always been a bit off. They're troubled aren't they?
Maybe? Though I've never like to that word...troubled? They’re more like tortured, agonized, but definitely suffering. It's like what the fuck is that? I get it you can't be too happy when you're an artist. Cause then all you would paint (or create) would be fucking rainbows and unicorns?! Hey that would be kind of awesome!? Bunnys!!!!! But we are who we want to be. Sure we're inspired by the wonderful people we fall in and out of love with, the ones that take their time to care for us and truly love us for the fuck-ups that we are (Ooo! yeah baby that's all me ...maybe I shouldn't be proud of that?). And for some reason creative minds are the biggest loser in life. They get no respect (dude sitting right here!). Again because I can't seem finish anything I start? (Except this hmmm that can't be right?)
So this leads me to think that I am an introvert!? Still introvert is such a funny word, the word it's self mean: A person characterized by concern primarily with his or her own thoughts or feeling. Maybe I am but I like the word hermit better. Introvert make you sound like you are self-centered and that I am not. Sure I can be a shut-in. I don't just only care about myself. I lovin lots of people and defiantly care about how they feel. Most of the time I put their feelings before mine, my pain, hurt or sorrow I can deal with its everyone else’s I can't. I don't know how to comfort anyone. I makes me wanna run for the hills...when a women cry O_o oh dear lord save me cause I don't know how to deal with that...I do all my crying (or at least I try) alone in the dark and in the comfort of my own home! So yeah maybe emotionally unavailability introvert is something all stupid creative people are. Ugh…whatever!
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