How do, I do?

Recently I was encouraged to start a blog of my own. I have this awesome friend who in my opinion is a true word smith. He suggested that I should share my rants and ramblings, cause he finds them so amusing in real life. I don't find myself fascinating or particularly exciting. Usually the words I use to describe myself are odd, weird, hermit like, Ooo and antisocial that's always a good one.

So let's start shall we...I don't have many friends as state above (cause of the antisocial thing) the friends I do have I've known for long periods of time my longest is...let's see we've known each other since we were five so about twenty-seven years. Now I feel old...not the point but the friendships I make or have made for me have always or are meant to last. I give my trust and heart if I feel that you are a genuine person inside...on the flip side I don't like people. I know it's a weird concept to grasp. And most people don't get me because sometimes I'm too shy and quite around the new. If I've know you for years or connect with you instantly I'm very open, wild and loud...Dear lord am I loud. Mostly I like to sit and watch yeah kind of creepy, Yup been called that too.

But as of lately I feel less of a friend and more of a... I'm not really sure what. These feeling make me want to retreat, stay away from all and everyone. Mostly I push away or stay away (see antisocial at it's finest). I just feel like I can't really be a good friend at all. I offer no real perspective on any real problems they might have. I'm just not up to par. I'm silly and annoying at most.  And as I've just notice I only think about myself. Maybe I should just do as I think and stay away. I am so depressing sometimes. Hopefully not all my entries will be this colorful or maybe they will. So on that sad note I end this...

Adriana