Really? One in a million...

So I'm very single... Surprising I know, cause I'm beautiful wonderful and lots of fun blah, blah, blah.... As a single person out in the world it's hard, and not the good kind. Sure you can go and do whatever the fuck you want whenever. And really I love my freedom but at a certain age you get the look and the talk; it's an oh really you don't have a boyfriend or any kids? You're so ______ _____ ______fill in the blanks if you will on how wonderful they think you are. Though what their really saying is wow you're sad and pathetic. Not only are you getting old but you're gonna die alone too (See no kid or significant other) you poor bastard. It's a Whf; are you weird because of it! Most people say yes, but I don't get it cause all the same people that wanna see you happy like they are. But I call bullshit cause you know, they're lives are fucked up and aren't really happy with their, five kids and of dickwad of spouse.

As a result what really everyone is saying is that you have some kind of character flaw cause you are not in a relationship or you lack the forethought to have children. It's like, so what everyone has their issues whether you’re pared up with kids or solo. I just don’t get being miserable with someone you’re supposed to love so much. Sure your kids I get…But I don’t like being looked down on just cause of that. If you’re gonna look down on me make it for something that I actually do or display. Because  I act like a twelve year old or the fact I still can’t take anything too seriously. I have so many to choose from but a lack of a spouse or children shouldn’t be one of them.

So you sit there with all the people that love and turly care about you. Telling you that you're a catch, a peach, that you’re sooo hot and you are, cause we all have something beautiful to give. Yet we are very much alone. Those friends are the ones that know the truth and sure we all wanna say we don’t know why we are alone, but come on YOU know why. Though we love hard and give it our all. Still we have failed relationship after relationship, and now that we are older. We’re jaded, skeptic, and broken. We are broken, but our love isn’t. I wish it was easier when you get involde in a relationship. When it ends and you break up. We all like to say nothing happens to you. You don’t change and stay the same. Though it would be kind of awesome it wouldn’t be realistic. I hate to say it, but we are and will be molded by the people we meet, love and definitely hurt us. The change is gradual with many turns but in the end we are different, though I don’t think anyone really sees it till the end.

Adriana