Forty days and forty Nights

See I’m catholic born and raised. So the fear of god has been instilled in me from a very early age. Not that I fear god (well maybe a little) but it was always something that was in the back of my mind. Every time we’re doing something ahem…dare I say bad? No, no more naughty? Wait I got it when we’re feeling exuberantly mischievous. So we were not bad per say just very enthusiastic with projects.

 Anyway we did all the things that good Catholics practices that are incorporate in the celebration of the resurrection of Jesus (aka jebus) Christ’s (aka Bunny day! I don’t get it where the hell does the bunny come from? aka Easter). So these would include Ash Wednesday…you know where they anoint you with (cigarette) ash and Lent.

Lent now I’m not really sure of all the actual technicalities of what you’re supposed to do. And sure I could look it up but don’t wanna can’t make me. Still these are the things my mother would make us do as children. One we were not supposed to eat meat. I get it’s about how he went without or something to that effect. Now this second one we didn’t practice until we got older cause I guess of the commitment. That you have to give something, you really love or maybe are addicted to.

I know, why do it If you don’t really understand it. Well I asked my mother once about it. As a consequence she gave me a dirty look that lead me lead to a long lecture about how Jebus die for our sin…and you can give up one thing you like for 40 days, and forty nights for him… -_- Ugh! Man can that women guilty me with the greatest of ease. She is so graceful with her words when she wants to be.

So with that said…It was something that I had to do. Therefore as a teenager I would usually give up candy or video games. I love love love candy…I always have but as long as I don’t have it in my face I can resist its sweet sweet call. Video games were much hard to relinquish; they were my escape, hide away from the bad times. Nevertheless it was something, save for some slip ups here and there, we (I) did pretty well.

Now as I got older with new vices to renounce things got a little funny. Yeah I mean the haahaha kind. One year I stopped smoking oh my, was that not pretty. Other year I gave up having sex…then there was the year I gave up alcohol…well this year I’m giving up Facebook. I can honestly say that I’m addicted like sex and smoking.

Come on people Facebook is a vice there are some (like me) that are on it continually. I was usually playing the FB games. I couldn’t help it I am hooked. Still I think it’s the fact that I could post snide comment that I make mentally or that my random thought were it was a place i could always express it. If that’s what I wanted, except details, no those are all mine…only special people get those.  

So I started on Wednesday. I didn’t post a last message I just logged out and delete the apps on my phone. At first I was like Ahhhhh!!!! I can believe, I’m really gonna do this!!! Then got home and delete the bookmark on my internet browser (Chrome Rules!! Fox Drools!) So Thursday was Day 1 and this should have post this then. Although it’s better late than never.

I’ve started strong. I think the fact that I delete everything on my phone helped. The temptation lingers though. I still know that and flick of a finger I can go now FB with my internet browser via my phone or at home too! Then I think of all the things I did on the online before I know I can do this…however I really do fear that I will falter.

Umm wish me luck! or Strength!